Taking A Deep Breath

The last two weeks have kicked my ass something fierce.
Two weeks ago today, we made the difficult decision to take Bartleby the Rat to the vet one final time. He had stopped eating over the weekend, which is a sure sign, and his movements were becoming slow and clumsy. It was hard, harder than most [...]

Because Pictures Are Worth 1,000 Words

That, Internet, is Baby Steen playing an Atari 2600.  That was my first video game system; I can remember playing Pong before I really even know how the game worked.
When I was six years old, I received a little white TV/VCR unit that I was allowed to keep in my bedroom.  Along with it, my [...]

On Letting Go

One of my (many) flaws is that I can be a cold and heartless bitch.
If you fuck with me or mine, I will cut you — as in, out of my life.  (Hey, I’m not from Jersey.)  I will smile to your face and act friendly towards you; you may even think that I like [...]

The Story of How I Became Jewish, or, Oy Vey!

Growing up, my father has always told me his side of the family was Jewish.
Of course, this is the same man who insisted he was the fifth Beatle, a rumor that he maintains to this day.   (My fourteen year-old cousin actually told his teachers and schoolmates that his uncle was in the Beatles and came [...]

Make-Me-Smile Monday

Over the weekend, some very exciting events came about: my sister-in-law got engaged to her boyfriend of four years!  He’s been apart of our family for about as long as I have and I couldn’t be happier that it’s Official.  My sister-in-law is at a great place in her life, having just bought a townhouse [...]

“Kinda like Grandma’s closet, but worse.”

I think that, should I ever get old, I’d be the eccentric grandma in the bright eyeshadow and smeared red lipstick giving outdated and unfashionable Christmas gifts to her grandchildren, who will politely accept the gifts and then roll their eyes to their parents in a mutual and shared moment of, “Wow, is she crazy!”
(I’ll [...]

“I wasn’t like any Korean role-model that they had ever seen. I didn’t play violin.”

Among the other books I’m currently reading, I just started I’m the One That I Want by Margaret Cho.
I have this fascination with reading books that touch on Korean culture in some fashion; maybe I wonder what it would have been like to grow up “more” Korean or how being immersed in the culture has [...]

“A father carries pictures where his money used to be.”

On Friday afternoon, I set out amidst the lunch crowd to drive over to Barnes & Noble to pick up some last-minute Father’s Day gifts; I get my bookish side from my dad except he reads things that are “educational” and “non-fiction,” whatever that means. The storms overhead swirled and crackled with lightning but, [...]

Two Steps Forward

Despite her modern beliefs and behavior, my mother is still a very traditional Korean mother at heart.
Anyone growing up with a Korean family can probably attest to the extreme pressures put on by their parents; my mother was never so forward with it but there was always that drive to be better than everyone else, [...]

“Because of their size, parents may be difficult to discipline properly.”

Internet, pray for me: my mother is getting Internet access on Monday.
(By the way: THREE DAY WEEKEND FTW.)
I love my mother dearly but she is not particularly “tech-savvy.” She’s a part of the generation that leaves computing to the young’uns. When I moved into my first apartment, I got a new computer so, [...]